Happy New Year ...
I'm hoping this year will be much better than the last one. Every year we say that this is the year of the Gunn, and every year we have been disappointed. I will be 46 in 4 days and am tired of the same old shit year after year. I am truly ready for some change.
I don't know if I will be doing a lot of blogging this year. I mean, my comments are being deleted from some blogs just for saying "Happy Thanksgiving," "Merry Christmas" and "Happy New Year." Imagine that. I may try to get off the internet and actually get a life. We'll see. I just want you all to know that I do appreciate you and love you and have made some damned good friends here. I have also (almost) thrown my life away with this medium and that will always be on the top of my mind. I can't imagine NOT having a presence on the web, but I really want to get my shit straightened out, too.
I don't know what 2008 will hold for us, but I know it will be different than previous years. I just hope that it will include the friendships and loves that I have found here. I know it will, but it may be different. I hope you understand and sorry about sounding like a whiney-assed beeyotch.
I hope that all of you have a very Happy New Year and that all your wishes and dreams come to fruition this year. Talk to you in a bit.
Love,
Me
Comments
you don't sound whiny. i certainly know it is ALREADY better than last year. and that makes me so proud of you. you guys just keep going in the right direction. i know you will. i love you guys. here's to the best year yet for the gunns. :)
Posted by: lime | January 3, 2008 6:24 AM
I've heard similar stories more times than I can count. Take care my friend and stop by and say hi when you get a chance.
Tony
Posted by: btexpress | January 3, 2008 1:00 PM
Sounds like you've got a plan. I was there last year too. George and I had it out over the blog. While he understood my need to "connect" during deployments, he didn't understand why I couldn't quite when he returned. It was something I had to work on. I'm here for you on the web and IRL, so call when you need to chat and ... Oh, yeah, I'm turning 30 so we can cry about it over lunch if you'd like!
Posted by: rose_michelle | January 3, 2008 1:12 PM
Sometime we do have to adjust our priorities. Seems like you are heading in the right direction. I've found I need to schedule a specific amount of time in the sphere; otherwise I find it's easy to get lost!
Hope this year is a good one for you and yours!
Posted by: Seamus | January 3, 2008 6:44 PM
I came across your blog for the first time the weekend before Christmas. I work 12 hour shifts 5 or 6 days a week and I am alone for that on nights and weekend days so...I work real hard....or I surf. It was a bad weekend but not December blue. I have had some real bad years and things are on the edge of getting better, not easier but better. I have the means now to get some stuff done because of a new job and even though I am being sued over my dept when I was unemployed things are getting better. I was, or have been down because I have been wanting other things, personal things to get better. To be a better Man in other areas. It is funny that when the fight for survival lets up I have time to feel the pain of waves of bad stuff that happened along the way (the death of my Mom in 05, losing my job that year and a myriad of other stuff). Don't get down as you read this though. I some how got to your site and to Mountain dreamers poem and as I read Hate Me started to play. I had been listening it to it all morning and the two together just made me give up...and really feel. The pain is there and real, inescapable but not everything. Getting into it and grieving and letting go and able to do the next 84 hour week and live. It made me remember that I'd had those days of why is this year the same as last and just as in the suck. It made me remember that I am to Fing small to kick a whole years ass but today is mine...and one at a time and one on one I am strong enough. Your blog....the things you say....I relate and even if you don't write every day I will look forward to hearing from you. I will go back and read what you have shared here and I am glad to get to know you and thankful you are brave enough to write.
Thank you,
Native
Posted by: Native | January 4, 2008 2:58 AM
I'm with ya TG! i'm ready to find some peace this year. Your support and encouragement through the many rough times this past year has meant a great deal to me. For that, I say Thank You and hope to still see you around. Love ya!
Posted by: Moosekahl | January 4, 2008 9:08 PM