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I haven't been around for a while. I appreciate those of you who have noticed that and e-mailed or IM'd me to wonder why.

My soon-to-be-ex-wife (maybe) spent the Labor Day weekend with us. Stayed the nights. And we were like a family again ... with one exception. We talked. About important shit.

A lot.

Something we had not done in a long time.

And there was sex ... good sex! Something I haven't had in a long time. Better sex than we have had for years.

I don't know what's going to happen, But I know that I do love her ... always have, no matter what I've told you. We will have been married for 23 years this coming March and have been together (dating included) for 29 years.

We have both had a lot of time to see what being apart from each other is like and have been thinking about it a lot.

Like I said, I don't know what's going to happen, but we're working on it. I do know this. We have given our church and my family a LOT to talk about. I heard that someone said "Did you SEE them walking into the church holding hands?"

That cracks my shit up!

But fuck 'em. My life is my own. I was the one who ruined this marriage and it is mine to fix. In fact, She asked me "Can I trust you again?"

I told her "I don't know." Hence, the uncertainty about what will happen. But I know this. We are talking like we haven't talked in the last decade. And that bodes well ... or at least it's a start. She will stay over here a few more nights this week and we will talk some more ... and that's a GOOD thing.

So pardon me for not being here while I try to work this out. I still love you all and hope you haven't forgotten me. I'm here. I'm just busy.

Talk to you soon,
Tommy