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August 24, 2007

The woman of my dreams ...

I love Todd McFarlane. In case you don't know McFarlane created the Spawn comic book character before moving on to create action figures. And not just any action figures, but extremely detailed action figures.

I was at work today and ran across a link to a group of figures he did based on the Wizard of Oz characters. Meet Dorothy, the woman of my dreams:

Dorothyresized

I'm in love and must have this whole set! Hey Christmas is coming and I been good ... sort of. Santa will understand, won't he? Sure he will ... I hope.

*Le Sigh*,

Did I mention I may be in love?

August 22, 2007

Brush with fame ...

Here's a kick in the ass for you.

I know I said I was not going to talk or blog about work anymore, but I have to tell you this.

Last spring, there was a festival here at Camp Swampy. Don't ask me why, we just do that shit now and again. It's Louisiana and that's just what we do. Well, the powers that be brought in a lot of bands and other acts to entertain the troops. One of them was a ventriloquist and he was AWESOME! Sang, told jokes, had several 'partners.' He was great!

It was my day off and I had the boys with me, but the Public Affairs TV guys were there and I volunteered to help them out.

I ended up interviewing the ventriloquist and had a really good time doing it. The interview turned out great and was broadcast on the post TV channel.

Any guesses who the ventriloquist was?

Terry Fator

That's right, Terry Fator, who last night just won "America's Got Talent." He won a million bucks and a gig as a headliner in Vegas. Let me tell you what. If you ever get a chance to see this guy, do it. He sounds just like everyone from Garth Brooks to Louis Armstrong. He is fucking awesome!

Wonder if he could loan me twenty bucks. We are old friends after all.

August 21, 2007

Erectile disfunction warnings ...

Okay. I'm watching "Dogfights" on the History Channel and a commercial for Cialis or Viagra or one of those ED fixer-uppers pops up. (No pun intended) I'm chatting with a friend and so not really paying attention when suddenly I hear "If you have an erection lasting four hours ..." in the warning portion of the commercial. I never really thought about it before, but I'm thinking to myself ...

Is that really a problem? Is it really a bad thing? Cuz I'm not seeing the down side here. (Again, no pun intended)

Ladies? Your thoughts?

August 20, 2007

Bridge to perversion?

Me and the boys watched "Bridge to Terabithia" last night. Well, me and RYAN did. Josh hit the sack after we got back from church and didn't get up except to come in and fall asleep on the couch during "300" (which I thought it started a little slow but ended up being freaking great! However, I digress)

So we finish "Terabithia" and are watching some of the extras. AnnaSophia Robb, the female lead, had a music video in there. I looked over at Ryan and said "She sings pretty good. And she's pretty hot!"

Without cracking a smile, he replies "Yeah and she's about 14, you pedophile."

Schooled by a 17 year old. *sniff* I'm so proud.

Oh, and work found my blog. I may need to make some changes. I'll let you know. Just know this. My employer does not endorse this blog nor is my blogging, opinions and other crap I post here in any way a reflection on my employer, nor am I an official spokesman for them when I post here. This is all me. Just "Joe Private Citizen," exercising my first amendment right to be an idiot. I won't be posting about work anymore and I may need to add a disclaimer to that effect. But we'll see. Ciao!

August 19, 2007

Life on Ambien ...

I just got my meds refilled and have started taking them again on a regular basis. I know ... shaddup! Lets just stipulate up front that I'm an idiot and be done with it.

So, the ex was here yesterday hanging out with me and the boys, we went shopping and did some other stuff. See, we find good deals on meat, buy a shit pile and split the cost. It works out well.

So while we're doing that, I invite her to stay for supper. We also went out and rented "Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles," "300" and "Bridge to Terabithia." It'll be a nice night of almost-family normalcy. Right? Riiiiiiight!

Have you learned NOTHING from reading this blog, grasshopper?

It's about 6 p.m. and time to take my evening meds. I grab my drink and upend the container holding the 9 bazillion pills I take per day and down them with a gulp.

Well, a couple of hours later, I start feeling really drunk ... woozy and kinda sleepy. It was about that time I remembered that hiding among those 9 bazillion pills was the pill that allows me to sleep nights ... yep ... my Ambien.

Apparently, I helped mowed the lawn, made a few passes at the ex, and fell asleep in the middle of TMNT ... all by 10 p.m.

Of course I don't REMEMBER any of this, but that's what the boys and the ex tell me I did and the lawn IS mowed so ...

Moral of the story? Fuck if I know! But I do know I'll be a little more careful the next time I upend my pill box and take the ones that make me do stupid shit like that out until I'm ready to hit the sack.

Remember kids: Better living through chemistry. It can be a beautiful thing ... if you pay attention to what the fuck you are doing!

August 17, 2007

These dreams ...

Oh My God!

I don't know what it is ... last night ... well ... lets just say that I had two of the weirdest fucking dreams I have had in my life.

I dream in color sometimes. I know, you're not supposed to and I don't know what it means that I do, but trust me I do.

I told you about seeing the shrink last night. Well I finally got my meds refilled and took the full dose for the first time in a while. I know, I'm fucking stupid, but when the electric bill is over $300 per month, sometimes you gotta sacrifice.

The thing that is weird is that I woke up and immediately wrote the dreams (or at least the gist of them) down. I mean, I NEVER do that. Now I just have to decipher what the fuck I wrote. Tommy? All Ambiened out? Early in the morning? Yeah, not a very pretty sight, nor am I that coherent.

I got a call today about the therapist. I had to drive BACK to the doc's office to fill out the paperwork and make sure I had insurance and all that shit, so I've been on the road all day. The actual first appointment is Monday. WOOT!

So It's been a busy last day of vacation and I need to get the kids fed. I'll do what I can to get the dreams on paper (or monitor I suppose) as soon as I can. After all. What's the sense in being a total loony if you can't share it with complete strangers.

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Oh, no, wait! I'm not talking about YOU guys, but I've been checking my statcounter lately and I notice I've been getting a lot of traffic from Army.mil. Probably just the C.I.A. checking up on me making sure the booster they put on the message-delivering device they put in my TV is not being blocked by the tinfoil hat and underwear I wear every day.

Those guys are sneaky, but I think I got their number. Oh, and Ryan is getting his learner's permit. Be Afraid, be VERY afraid!

August 16, 2007

Calling Doctor Feelgood ...

...and bring Nurse Goodbody with you!

Had an appointment Thursday with the head doc. He doubled my meds. I think he's trying to tell me something.

He also gave me a consult for a therapist. He thinks it should only take a few sessions to get me back on track. Shows you how much he knows ME, huh?

It's my last day of vacation. I've been gone two weeks. I'm not sure how I feel about having to go back. I really think I need to find some way to work from home.

I'm still working on getting through "The Thirteenth Tale" The hour-and-a-half drive ... each way ... to the doc and back ... put a big dent in that for me today. I'm really enjoying it. You know how I know that? Cuz I'm already starting to dread the end of the tale. *le sigh*

By the way! Thanks for the recommendation. What would you suggest I "read" next?

Thank God for Ambien and good insurance.

Why do TV producers take a good idea and beat the dog shit out of it? I loved "The Deadliest Catch" on the Discovery Channel. (In case you don't know, "The Deadliest Catch" followed several groups of fishermen during the very short, very dangerous Alaskan crab season. AWESOME SHOW!) Well, apparently it was such a big success they figure they have to clone the PISS out of it. Right now, "Lobster Wars" or some such shit is on and I just saw a badge on the bottom of the screen that said "NEXT: Tuna Wranglers" I mean WTF? Stop.The.Madness! Please!

On another note, "Dirty Jobs with Mike Rowe?" Classic! I LOVE that freaking show.

Aren't you glad you're privy to the scintillating ins-and-outs, the non-stop misadventures and the inumerable odd thoughts and other shit running through my brain that make up the life and times of Sir Thomas of Gunn, Duke of Pornia?

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Yeah ... me too.

HEY! I heard that. You're laughing WITH me, right? No? At me? Shit man, that just ain't right OR polite. What would your mother think?

Somebody tell me why I blog again? Please?

August 15, 2007

Seek and ye shall find ... on the web.

I subscribe to a service called Clipmarks. Bloggers and surfers from all over the world "clip" their favorite findings and post them in a central location. It's kinda like YouTube but it's not just for video.

Today the email with the new collection came in and this gem was among them. Totally stolen from Infidel Guy's blog.

A grumpy old man walks into a local First Baptist Church and says to the secretary, "I wanna join this damn church."

The astonished woman replies, "I beg your pardon, sir. I must have misunderstood you. What did you say?"

"Listen up, dammit. I said I want to join this damn church!"

"I'm very sorry sir, but that kind of language is not tolerated in this church." The secretary leaves her desk and goes into the pastor's study to inform him of her situation. The pastor agrees that the secretary does not have to listen to that foul language. They both return to her office and the pastor asks, "Sir, what seems to be the problem here?"

"There IS no damn problem!," the man says. "Looky here, I just won $200 million bucks in the damn lottery and I want to join this damn church to get rid of some of this damn money."

"I see," said the pastor. "And is this bitch giving you a hard time?"

Thanks Infidel Guy. I needed that.

Karma bites a braggart ...

on the ASS!

I have never been silent or ashamed of my status as a domestic God. Long-time readers know I love to cook and *shudder* even clean on occasion. Momma Gunn taught me well and I sooooo thank her for that. Given my current situation as a single father responsible for caring for two boys, I can't even envision the state this household would be in had she not made sure I was prepared for this eventuality. Almost spooky psychic, huh?

Never doubt a mother's wisdom.

On the other hand, there are always new things to learn ... like yesterday ... when I started the dryer and THEN opened the lint trap to scrape it clean ...

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... and watched the lint being sucked off the screen and through the dryer, making it's way to *cue Mel Gibson in "Braveheart"* "FREEDOM!"

On a good note, it did add some much needed color to my lawn when it found that freedom just beyond the hot-air outlet vent on the outside wall... REDDISH-PINK color, but color nonetheless.

Did I mention I'm a domestic God? Yeah, I thought so.

August 14, 2007

WTF is he thinking?

I'm baaaaaaaack! WOOT!

I spent the afternoon and into the night yesterday reinstalling my OS on my laptop. It still seems to be a bit wonky, but I'm working on it. For some reason, it doesn't want to upload the Microsoft Office suite that I had on there before. I mean it worked fine before, but now it's telling me there is a problem.

I also despise the fact that I have to reboot about a thousand times while installing all the add-on shit that made my laptop so convenient to use. But I'm working through it. I have all the necessities installed and can take my time with the rest.

Did I mention I was up until 3 a.m. this morning fucking with it? Yeah ... I know, I'm anal.

Oh, and Son #1 had to be at Wal Mart at 7:30 a.m. this morning to fill out paperwork and get the referral for the drug test he had to take.

I guess he was excited about pissing in the bottle because at 6:30 a.m., he was IN MY FACE YELLING that I needed to get up and get ready to get him there.

Have I mentioned that Wal Mart is only a ten minute drive from our house? No? YES! IT'S A 10 MINUTE FUCKING DRIVE! What is he freaking thinking!

And on top of that YELLING! I coulda killed him, but I was a nice guy ... I told him to GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY FACE AND TALK TO ME AT 7 A.M.! I mean, shit, man, I set the freaking alarm clock. I'm a responsible adult! Gimme a break!

We got there 10 minutes early and I hung out in the parking lot listening to "The Thirteenth Tale" (see side bar) on the iPod. He came back out with the piss test paperwork about 40 minutes later.

Now, there used to be a drug test center in Podunk Junction (my home town) but apparently they went out of business and the nearest one is now in Podink Junction (the next town over, a 30 minute drive.)

Oh yeah! Did I mention that I was taking my younger son out of school today so he could attend a Driving School so he could get his learners permit? And that the school started at 9 a.m.? And that the drug testing center was only open from 8-11 a.m. and closed on Wednesdays?

Yeah, I thought it was ridiculous too.

Thanks to the soon-to-be-ex, we got everybody where they needed to be and all was well. Oh, I'm also semi-permanently babysitting my sister's dogs (they have been here for the past year) and they had an appointment this afternoon. They are fine and are set for the next six months with the exception of needing their teeth cleaned ... at a cost of $140 apiece. WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT ALL ABOUT? Damn. Sorry, I may be PMSing. It's been a busy fucking day,

I think I'm gonna throw on a chicken breast casserole, take my Ambien and go to bed, Flickr uploader, Microsoft Outlook and Photoshop be damned. Love you guys. Talk to you tomorrow when I'm more prepared to face the world.

Laters

August 13, 2007

Technical difficulties ...

photo159p (by Duke of Pornia)

So things are clogging up here on the Dark Side. The old PC arteries are getting clogged and it's time to go in for a quadruple bypass surgery ... that's right. It's time to reinstall the OS. BLEH!

So if I'm not around, or if the web looks a little brighter, it's because the Dark Side has gone, well, dark for a while. I should be back up no later than tomorrow though.

Wonder if it's time to look into a Mac? Have a great one folks and I'll see you on the flip side.

Tommy, Out!

August 12, 2007

My head is expanding ...

how_do_you_ic_383x184 (by Duke of Pornia)

Tonight, I made a beef roast, mashed potatoes and candied carrots. I cut slots in the roast and stuffed about a dozen cloves of garlic in them and then seasoned it with olive oil and a garlic herb seasoning mixture.

I boiled the potatoes while sauteeing a Vidalia onion and a couple of tablespoons of diced garlic. I put the potatoes and onion sautee in the Kitchen Aid mixer, added butter, sour cream and cheese and whipped them up.

The carrots were slightly steamed then I added a couple of tablespoons of honey, a couple of teaspoons of cinnamon and a cup of brown sugar. I left them on medium heat until the water evaporated and the sweet stuff made a glaze.

I believe that during the cooking process, the only way to ensure that everything is good is to taste and taste frequently. I often employ others that are going to enjoy the meal in the tasting process and ask their opinion about what is needed. IE: more salt, pepper, spices, etc. Obviously, the boys get to help out a lot and I have to say that they know what the fuck they are talking about.

If Ryan or Joshua say "I think it could use some cayenne pepper, or soy sauce, or thyme, or salt, or WHATEVER ... I believe them. See, I taste it first and have an idea of what the food needs, but I want to hear what they have to say. Sometimes they surprise me and suggest something I might not have thought of ... not often, but sometimes, and usually they are right and the dish ends up better than it would have. It's because of this that I think I rarely have complaints about what I cook.

Tonight, as I was in the kitchen, "Iron Chef America" was on. It was battle "Farmers Market" and we had been looking forward to watching it all week. The boys were in the living room and I was minding the stove when suddenly a voice called out ... "Hey dad! Why don't YOU take on one of the Iron Chefs?"

Now obviously, there has never been a home chef who has been accepted into Kitchen Stadium for that particular culinary battle, but my head swelled anyway. I was proud to think they considered me so capable in the kitchen that I could possibly do it.

I love being a domestic God! Have a good week ya'll"

Does he really?

"Only God Knows Why" by Kid Rock

"I've been sittin' here, trying to find myself,
I get behind myself, I need to rewind myself

Looking for the payback, listen for the playback
They say that every man, bleeds just like me

And i feel like number one, but yet I'm last in line
I watch my younger son, and it helps to pass the time

I take too many pills, it helps to ease the pain,
I made a couple dollar bills, but still I feel the same

Everybody knows my name, they say it way out loud
A lot of folks fuck with me, it's hard to hang out in crowds

I guess that's the price you pay, to be some big shot like i am
Out stretched hands and one night stands, still i can't find love

And when your walls come tumbling down ... I will always be around

People don't know, about the things I say and do
They don't understand, about the shit that I've been through,

It's been so long, since I've been home
I've been gone, I've been gone for way too long

Maybe i forgot, all the things I miss
Oh somehow I know, there's more to life than this,

I said it too many times, and i still stand firm
You get what you put in, and people get what they deserve,

Still I ain't seen mine, no I ain't seen mine
I've been giving just ain't been gettin', I've been walking that there line

So I think I'll keep walking, with my head held high
I'll keep moving on, and only God knows why

Only God... only God
Only God knows why
Only God... knows ... why, why, why
Only God knows why

Take me to the river
hey
Take me to the river

Sometimes? Music just says it so much better than I could.

Cuz I like it ...

Photoshopped Blue Eye (by Duke of Pornia)

And? I'm lazy and busy doing laundry. So sue me!

August 11, 2007

Words of wisdom ...

As seen on "Feasting on Asphalt, Season 2" starring Alton Brown:

"There is nothing sadder than someone sitting around talking about what might have been."

~Anonymous

Not me, friend, not me.

August 10, 2007

Enough is enough ...

In other words, time to get that ... picture ... off the top of the page.

I know I've been a little lazy the past couple of days. I still owe you the next installment of "I think I know ..." But part of being bi-polar is that sometimes you're in a GOOD mood and don't really want to revisit those things that seemed so cathartic when you're down.

Maybe you can tell, I'm in the "good mood" phase or as a friend tells me: "You're fucking manic today, dude!"

So a couple of things: Why are relationships hard? I have gone through my life pretty much on cruise control. I got married back in 1985 and since then, really haven't thought about relationships much. It was just a day to day thing, doing what had to be done.

Now that I'm separated, I'm seeing how difficult it really is.

I don't like being alone. I know that. I've had others tell me that they see that trait in me also. But I don't want to settle. I REFUSE to settle! Life is too short to go through this shit again.

What do you do when you have an idea, really specific ideas, actually, of what you want your future partner to be and be like and yet? You always seem to find some flaw that disqualifies those you meet? Is there really a soul mate out there for me?

What if she's in Duluth, MN, or Riverside, CA, or even nearby in Lake Charles, LA, and I don't get to meet her because I'm here? Can I find her on the internet? Is that creepy that I have to ask that question?

What do you do when going forward seems disingenuous, but being alone is anathema to your very being? I know that to rush into something would just be T-R-O-U-B-L-E in the future. But I NEED someone to share my days with. I'm not good at solitude even though I am a solitary individual by nature. Fucked up, huh?

And you know what? Sex for sex's sake? Just doesn't fill that void (although I'll take it. Sheesh I still am a man after all!) I know! Never in my life did I think I would hear those words coming from my mouth (or, in this case, dripping from my keyboard.)

I guess the answer is to learn to be alone and happy with myself and my own company. Is there a school I can go to, a class I can take to learn that? I guess what I'm trying to say is that I look into the future and see a dark, foggy place. I can see my feet and the road they are on, but that's about it. I know what I want in a partner, I just don't know if I'll ever be able to find her. And if I don't ... what the fuck do I do then?

Second: I always read in other (funnier than I am) bloggers comments that "OMG I just peed myself laughing at that." or "I just spit (insert drink of choice here) all over my monitor!"

Does that ever REALLY happen, or are people just full of shit? Just curious. I know what I'm betting.

That's enough for now. I'm taking the camera and hitting the road. Wish me good hunting and Happy Friday to you.

August 9, 2007

YEAH BABY!

Gas is back on! I'll be in the shower if you need me. Laters!

In the shower ... (by Duke of Pornia)

August 8, 2007

Wednesday Randomosity ...

Okay. So last night, I told Joshua to go out and mow the front lawn. He went out and, in his usual half-assed fashion, mowed about, oh ... a quarter of it before giving up? Yeah, he's a ball of energy and responsibility, that one.

Fast forward to this morning. I was out on the front porch talking to the gas company about when in the near future I might have gas again (we've had some kind of problem and it's been turned off since the 2nd) and notice the OLD man across the street is puttering around in his yard. I get off the phone with the gas company (the leak should be fixed tomorrow sometime) and come back into the house to ... well ... surf the net and fuck off a little bit.

Have I mentioned I'm on vacation? Yeah, life's tough.

Josh spent the night with the ex last night so he could take a shower (no hot water here. see gas reference above) and be ready for a job interview at Wal-Mart. They got back a little after I came in and asked "Why is the neighbor mowing your lawn?"

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That's right. The old man had gotten on his riding lawnmower and come over to finish Josh's job ... uninvited, without asking.

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I need to go ask him when he's gonna weed eat, I guess.

Oh and JOSHUA GOT CALLED INTO WAL-MART FOR AN INTERVIEW! WOO HOO! This fucking kid (Kid my shiny, bald ass. He'll be 20 in November) has been unemployed since he got back from the failed attempt at joining the military. I was so fed up, I told him to have his shit ready because I was taking him every place in town to apply during my vacation.

Well, lo and behold, the first day of vacation, he gets an interview. Pending a background check (and just what the fuck do they have to check? He's a former fucking employee! Don't even get me started ...) and a drug screen, he'll be the garden center cashier. THANK GOD! Now he can contribute something besides keeping up with the story line of "Drake and Josh" and testing his mattress for firmness until early afternoon.

Finally, a joke. When I got to my current hometown, I looked up my high school girlfriend. We had lost contact through the years, so imagine my surprise to find she is living here, in almost the same place she did when we dated!

We got in touch and have hung out a few times since then. It's good to have an old friend to talk to these days. Well, she texts me occasionally with jokes and such. Never to be one NOT to attribute when I blatantly steal something, this is her latest offering:

"I just bought a racehorse called 'My Face.' It may not be any good, but I can't wait to hear all the women in the crowd screaming 'Come on, My Face!!!'"

Yeah, she cracks my shit up. Laters!

August 7, 2007

My life, my joy, my pain ...

Ryanplays (by Duke of Pornia)

Joshkneels (by Duke of Pornia)

gaming (by Duke of Pornia)

Out of focus? Naaaaaah. Artsy!

Aaaaahhhhhhhhhh ....

Taken from the balcony last night ....

sky (by Duke of Pornia)

Did I mention I'm on vacation? Yeah ... sweet. More to come later.

August 5, 2007

Sunday Randomosity ...

She got a Mac laptop. Seventeen inch wide-screen, dual core Intel Centrino processors ... really a sweet machine. I spent yesterday afternoon and evening helping her set it up as she has never worked on a Mac before. It has two years left on the warranty ... and it was given to her. Free of charge. I'm so fucking jealous I could spit.

A small part of me ... a very small part of me thought about reconciling with my wife and seeing if we couldn't work it out. While I was there last night, we talked ... really talked. More openly and more honestly than we have in probably 20 years. I found out some things that really shocked me about her. I'm still trying to digest them, but I'm good with it. The end result is, we now both realize that It's over, no chance for kissing and making up. And you know what? I'm really okay with that.

I went to church today, on my own initiative, for the first time in years. Talked to the preacher on-on-one and may be going back to talk to him again later this week. It took every fibre of my being to take that first step. Now I just have to see if I have the balls to put the next foot forward. On a side note, Ole Blue, commented on my last post that " I did not read the handbook. I thought it may be a trick to lure me into a cult." You know? Some of the things that went on this morning kinda made me feel the same way. Does that make me a raving hypocrite? Seeking out the preacher's council while feeling a little dirty about the service? Well, it wouldn't be the first time and I'm sure it won't be the last.

That's about it. Toodles for now.

August 3, 2007

I think I know ... part 5

I hated Alabaster Christian Academy from the moment I walked through the doors. I thought the people were so snotty and snooty ... just a bunch of pampered rich kids who would leave there bound for the best colleges and careers. What did I care about that. I didn't need school, didn't want to be there ... hell, I wanted to be a longshoreman. What do they need school for? (Although after watching a season's worth of the Discovery Channel's "The Deadliest Catch" I think I'm glad I didn't follow up on that dream!)

I don't know if I can explain it as good as the school handbook does. I'm totally serious, you really need to read this so you get a feeling of what this old miscreant was facing. Go ahead ... it's only about 20 pages. I'll wait.

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I soon learned that ACA didn't work like other schools. They worked on the P.A.C.E. system. Don't even ask me what P.A.C.E. stands for and I won't lie and act like I know (although I'm thinking "Puritans Against Christless Education" or "Prudes Aghast at Children's Enjoyment.") I just tried to Google it and couldn't find it.

Here's the basic concept: Students took classes at their own pace, hence, I suppose the P.A.C.E. system. The quicker you could get done and pass the test, the quicker you moved to the next subject. They actually had kids who applied themselves, and as a result, graduated at the age of 16. No shit!

Boys and girls, I made up every credit I failed in my previous two and a-half years in public school ... and I did it in one semester. Actually, I was ahead of where I was supposed to be at that point in my career. I was so far ahead that, during my senior year, all I had to take were two English classes and an agriculture class (an elective.) I spent the second half of the day at auto shop class at the vocational technical school.

As much as I hated ACA, it was probably the best thing that could have happened to me at that point in my life. Oh and I lettered in wrestling also. I went to the state championship and got my ass WHIPPED in the first round, but I lettered. I think that was the first thing I ever excelled at that I could really be proud of.

To this day, I have a hard time believing I actually joined an extracurricular activity that didn't end up with me passed out on the floor or puking in a corner. Of course I got to legally beat people up, which was probably the biggest benefit I could see to the whole thing. God, I love a good cross-face! But I digress.

Things are looking up. I got my shiite together. I think it's all gonna work out fine.

Yeah

Sure. This is Tommy we're talking about, remember?

Next chapter? "The Downfall". See ya later!

I think I know ... part 4

The two week party was a way we chose to celebrate coming back from the Christmas break. I hung out with the smokers ... all kinds of smokers, if you know what I mean. In fact, I had been smoking (tobacco) for years ... since the age of nine. But let me back up a bit and set the stage.

We moved to Alaska my freshman year of high school and what a high school it was! It had five stories, an indoor rifle range, a three-court basketball gym, gymnastics/wrestling rooms, photography studios with darkrooms and cameras to check out to the students, two cafeterias, a self-contained theatre. I'm not shitting you ... the list goes on and on! It really was an awesome school.

My first day, I was wandering around, hopelessly lost, when this beautiful girl came up and offered to help me find my class. I was dumbstruck, but thankful all the same. We kind of hung out that day as she showed me around. At lunch, she asked if I smoked pot. Well, not wanting to possibly offend, Of course I told her I did, but I'm afraid she saw through that lie by my performance. It was my first time and it showed.

She ended up showing me where the smoking area was (I'm not kidding. The school actually had a legal, authorized smoking area for students! I couldn't believe it either!) and that area became my home base for the rest of my academic tenure there. It was there I learned the lesson she tried to teach me that day, and learned it to perfection. I made a lot of friends there and some enemies too, but that's another story.

A few of my friends, decided that we would skip the first couple of days of the semester. It was a HUGE school and, kind of like college, the class roll really wasn't set until the semester had been in session for about a week. No one would miss us. It was perfect.

We got to school in the morning and headed into the woods to a clearing. We hung out there all day. We would go into the school and "borrow" chairs from the lunchroom, we gathered wood and built a bonfire ... it was a freaking par-tay! Word started spreading and it just got bigger and bigger with more and more people shuffling through.

There was a small cadre of regulars that stayed out there all day, but people came and went throughout the two weeks. Some brought weed, some beer or hard liquor and everybody shared everything. It was kind of like a hippie commune except I think we smelled better.

We would sneak into the school and steal sodas out of the machines to use as mixers and get food from the cafeteria. See back then, all you had to do was stick your arm up the machine and lever the cokes out. If you took so many you couldn't reach anymore, you just put some money in and made your selection. The cokes would fall to the bottom and you just started over again.

Need money? No problem. If you hit a certain one of them right above the coin return slot, it would spit out coins. God we were evil, but we had a good time. We stayed out there for two weeks and it was the best time I think I ever had.

The party probably would have gone on longer, but one day one of the school narcs (employees of the school, kinda like rent-a-cops, that were there to keep order, break up fights, bust drug dealers, etc.) saw some guys walking into the woods and started chasing them. As he chased them past a particularly large tree, someone stepped out and clubbed him over the head with a baseball bat. He ended up being hospitalized with a nasty concussion and the party was officially over.

I have to tell you, I'm not proud of some (many) of the things I did as a kid and I'm happy he didn't get hurt worse than he did. I'm not bragging or anything here, just stating the facts as they happened.

I think that was the semester of the six F's and a D. Just another example of why the school, for good reason, kicked me out. So now that I've fulfilled that promise, on to the new school, but that will be tomorrow. See you here.

Can you say ...

Five hours till vacation starts! Tick, tick, tick, tick ...

howdy ya'll (by Duke of Pornia)

I can wait

really, I can

I have the patience of Job

Edit: It's ON! Two weeks of solitary bliss. Laziness shall abound, pictures will be taken, sleep will be had ... glorious, glorious vacation, I welcome thee with open arms! Embrace me and let me lose myself in thy bounty. Ahhhhhhhh. Peace, solitude, bliss ...

August 2, 2007

I think I know ... part 3

When last we left our intrepid hero, he was getting his ass whacked for smoking. Wondering what the fuck I'm talking about? Catch up with part one and part two.

Caught up? Good!

So ... where was I? Oh yeah. Getting my ass whipped because a schoolmate's mom saw me smoking and turned me in. As I've thought about this over the past day or so, I am conflicted. The better story, given my proclivity towards hating God (again, I refer you to part one) would be to tell you what a shit hole this was and how hypocritical everybody was that went there and how it was the worst time of my life ... but that isn't the TRUE story.

The truth is that it was probably the best thing that ever happened to me. What? You don't believe me? To quote an old Harrison Ford movie, "You will, Doctor Jones, you will." My average report card while I was in public school was dismal. I walked into my classes stoned off my ass most of the time.

I remember a couple of history classes I had with a particular teacher. His name was Lee Highsmith. I thought he was an interminable prick. There was a picture of him in the yearbook with a Kangol -style hat, longish hair, smoking a pipe with a scarf wrapped around his neck. Oh and he was in a Bugatti, too. I mean, just really pretentious looking.

The first class I took with him was Native American History. I was in class and, God, I wish I could remember what happened exactly, but I can't. I remember we got into an argument. What was it about? Who the fuck really knows. All I remember is that he finally told me I was disrupting the class and to leave. I looked at him and said "Fuck you, I ain't going anywhere." I was tough. He wasn't gonna scare me. I mean what was this pretentious prick gonna do? Physically remove me? Pffft, he wouldn't dare!

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So Lee and I are walking down the hall ... well he is walking. Me? I am tiptoeing. Not because I want to be quiet and respectful of all the other students, those conformist sponges, soaking up their lessons so as to make their transition to the college of their choice an easy one.

No. I'm tiptoeing because Lee, nice guy that he is, has one arm around my windpipe and his other hand has my arm held, rather uncomfortably I might add, behind my back. He has my arm so high that I could probably groom the duck tail I wore then ... If he would just be nice enough to hand me the comb that was ever-present in my back pocket. But he had other plans ... like getting me to the principals office and getting back to class to teach the kids that WANTED to learn.

Needless to say, I never darkened the doorstep of his class again that semester. The same thing happened a year or so later. I was taking another class with him and just ... didn't feel like being there. So I took my boom box (an 8-track no less ... with F.M. Radio! SWEET!) and pulled a chair up to the window. I was really considerate. HONEST! I kept it down to a level where only me and the closest students could hear it.

Can you imagine? Lee didn't approve! What the fuck was his problem? Well, long story short, I ended up tiptoeing down the hall to the principals office with his arm around my neck and my left hand scratching my shoulders. Again, that was the last time I darkened his doorway that semester.

That was an encapsulation of my high school experience. There was a two week party that I'll tell you about later as well as time on the rifle range, photography class and a contemporaneous speech in JROTC extolling the virtues of cocaine ... but let me leave you with this.

My average report card had more D's and F's than anything else. I think my worst one was six F's and a D. I got kicked out of high school after two and a half years after only earning like ... fuck I don't remember. Maybe six credit hours? And that's just an old man giving himself the benefit of the doubt.

I was a pathetic student. But! I had been in several of the school's biggest musical theatrical productions including the spring production of "Charlotte's Web" where I played Wilbur the Pig! WOOT! Seriously! I was a star. Here is the proof:

wilbur (by Duke of Pornia)

This was a full dress rehearsal. I'm the guy in pink. I like the way my cast accessorized the outfit. (Remind me to tell you about how I broke those fingers. I tell you, I'm lucky to be alive.)

In the next installment? Anchorage Christan Schools and why they were so good for me. Ciao!

August 1, 2007

I think I know ... part 2

This is the second in God-only-knows-how-many posts that explain why, when I compare my life to some others, I feel like I come up on the very short end of the stick. Not a whining post, but in the words of Jack Webb (Joe Friday on "Dragnet",) "Just the facts, ma'am."

To get caught up on the story, go here.

I joined the Air Force. The first time, I had a guaranteed job as an air traffic controller. It was in the early '80s, right after Ronald Reagan had fired all the air traffic controllers for going on strike. It was sweet. I was looking forward to making a TON of bucks and having a good life ahead of me.

But what do they say? The best laid plans of mice and men? There is a process (or at least there was when I joined) where the officers at the inprocessing station take all the prospective recruits into a room and warn them that if they have lied or failed to mention anything that might disallow them from serving in the military, this was their last chance to make it right. They subtly threaten you with fines and jail and having your nuts crushed and bamboo shoots shoved under your fingernails. This was the FINAL step before you are lined up and sworn in.

Ah, but your humble correspondent is a total fuck up. Remember? Let me get into the wayback machine and fill you in a bit.

I got kicked out of public high school in my 11th grade year. I was a hellion in high school. I skipped for weeks at a time, I did drugs, got in physical altercations with teachers ... I'm totally surprised they put up with me for two and a half years. But they soon rectified that mistake. When I went in to get my class schedule for the second half of my junior year, the counselor and the principal pulled me in to the office and told me that I was wasting their time and they were wasting mine and so my presence would no longer be required at the high school.

I went home and told my parents I had been kicked out of school and I was done. I didn't need it. I could get bye ... make it on my own. I was thinking "Hey! I can sell pot. I can bust up a $60 ounce into 28 grams. At $5 per gram, that's $140 ... more than double my investment!." Of course I didn't think about how I would live off the $20 profit I would enjoy after I bought two ounces. I mean fuck! If I had weed, I would definitely have food, right? Riiiiight!

Well, mom and dad had a different plan. They planned on me to finish school and it didn't make a fuck what I thought. Before I knew it, I was enrolled in a private Christian school. Part of the deal was that I would have to go to church every time the doors were open. Sunday morning, night and Wednesday night. I also had to wear a shirt and tie and get my very long hair cut almost military-style. Oh and smoking? Drinking? Fuggetaboutit! In fact, I got licks (thats corporal punishment to you edukated folks ... you know. A spanking ... with a paddle!) from the principal because a fellow student's parents saw me smoking and turned me in. It was fucked up, but I submitted to my fate and went along gracefully.

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BWAHAHAHAHAHA! *snort* Damn, I almost pulled it off! Sorry, just couldn't keep a straight face,

That's about enough for tonight though, so until next time...

::TO BE CONTINUED::