Awakenings ...
A child feels a stirring,
emotions rush to the surface.
Fire soon courses through his veins,
beauty is everywhere.
It has always surrounded him but, his mind was
blinded to the joy of the softer sex.
That day he awakes and sees clearly,
for perhaps the first time,
the joys that await him.
Adolescence passes, manhood arrives.
Those feelings fall to the side
replaced by responsibilities, children, a partner
life continues as the beast hibernates
lulled by the pace of life.
The beast sleeps peacefully
for the most part.
Tossing fitfully, turning dreaming and snorting occasionally
but his repose continues.
Then one day, the boy turned man
becomes a boy again. Fire sears his heart once more.
The beast wakens after feeling the heat of passion
not experienced in years, almost foreign.
The man, realizing the beast is starving, attempts to satisfy that hunger
The beast, grizzled, bearded, nails grown long
takes over. He is alive and it is good!
The beast has grown impatient, only thinking of self
and in so doing, claws cut, his beard wraps and clings tightly. Suffocating
Confusion, pain, given and recieved,
the beast is uncontrollable, thinking only of self.
The man cries out "NO!"
but too late. Damage is done, unforgivable pain is meted out.
The man battles the beast and chains him
but those wounds still bleed and hearts break.
Regrets are felt, forgiveness is sought but too late, he fears
The beast is finally controlled and the man belatedly, sorrowfully
Awakens
Comments
it's tough, it's agonizing, it's nearly impossible, but you and the one you love can make it through this. if you try to hide the beast again, it will only break free and devastate again. you have to work together to train and satisfy that beast, so that it works with you both instead of against you both.
best of luck. i know you can do this. i hope that you're both committed to taming that beast together. if not, you'll still make it through, i'm sure of it.
excellent analogy. thinking of you, TG.
Posted by: Sis B | June 19, 2006 12:58 PM
There is a mighty struggle ahead of you, but it is worth fighting for. Good luck in the battle to come.
This is a very moving post.
Susan
Posted by: the melody censor | June 19, 2006 2:01 PM
Been thinking of you today........................
Posted by: Wenchy | June 19, 2006 2:45 PM
you are in my thoughts today. (hugs)
and sissy said it well. find the good parts of that youthful passion and live there. let it help you rebuild and create instead of clawing to destroy. very moving piece of writing, big guy.
Posted by: lime | June 19, 2006 3:01 PM
I've thought of you off and on all day today.
((((((hugs)))))) It's all I can do.
Posted by: Deb | June 19, 2006 6:42 PM
Hang in there TG..your in my thoughts sweetie.
Posted by: Dusty | June 19, 2006 9:28 PM
Oh how to taste just one drop of sweet wine without falling into the entire barrel?
Try not to eat your tail, love, but I know, people like us....it's all we can do not to XXXX
Posted by: Susie | June 20, 2006 12:28 AM
Written so well, Tommy.
xo
Posted by: sandi | June 20, 2006 6:32 AM
I know this beast you speak of, only I call her my twin. ;-) Sometimes you just need to feed the hunger babe, yeah, I know.
Love you!!
Posted by: muse | June 20, 2006 9:56 AM
Well said!
Posted by: steve | June 20, 2006 1:36 PM
(((you)))
thinking of you
Posted by: leen | June 20, 2006 6:39 PM